Antiquing and Tears

My parents have always loved antiques. The same parents that scored other people's trash on big dump day. Click HERE for that fun post. Growing up my sister and I were drug to antique stores where they looked at each and every artifact in the place. Even when we were on vacation they would somehow find these antique places and we would beg and plead for them to please just leave us in the car. As we got older they obliged.

Turns out I like antiques now. Guess that is about like the trash digging. I haven't been to an antique store in quite sometime, but yesterday I found myself in one, searching for that special and unique something for my sister for Christmas. Sorry Sara, I did not find it so you will have to wait until your birthday. When I walked in I was a little overwhelmed and I thought to myself, What was my gameplan going to be? How was I going to make my way through this place so that I didn't miss anything? My childhood came rushing back and I remember that disgruntled 12 year old slumped in the back of a blue station wagon pouting, while her parents browsed antique stores. I had to smile at that.

As I walked along I began to think of my grandmother. She occasionaly works at that very antique mall and I found myself wishing she were there with me to show me where all the coolest treasures were and to tell me if it was priced right or not. She always knows the things I like. Then, I realized I was just missing her altogether and I got sad that I don't see any of my grandparents as much as I used to or as much as I would like to. Then, the tears came. I hope no one saw me. I guess ever since I had children I have just been so consumed in my own family that I haven't opened my eyes enough to others. Some may say, well, that's how life is, but I want it to be different. I want to visit with my grandparents more often and hear their stories and learn about their lives more. I want them to know how very special they are to me and how very much I love them. So, this year that is going to change with me. I am going to make an effort. I am also going to make something really cool. So stayed tuned to find out what it is.